Roger Maris I have been to the Light so many times. My Teachers tried to reign me in, I could not at first understand why. But if you have any experience with this you understand that each time it Changes.. Burns away the dross so to speak.. which is fine when we actually die, BUT if you do it over and over and over....and you change each time..People that Thought they ,"knew" you..Kind of Freak out.... To actually answer your question would require a write an entire book. First to address your, "Ego" question shows me that you are not aware about the circular nature of a Souls evolution...not the linear ascension model they hypnotized us with to control us.. The Reality is, the EGO and the SOUL are the very same thing, only going in different directions on the Wheel of Evolution. We begin, to make it simple...IN Light, then we separate from that with this Compulsion (which is part of the Plan) to Find a Unique SEPARATE Expression within Creation. Duality is our Tool.... we follow Desire and run from Fear to DEFINE who we believe we are.... Eventually we reach Critical mass and Culminate in the Unique Separate expression...our contribution to the Masterpiece of Creation. At that point Mystics will say, the Wheel Reverses..Now we begin to discard our collection, all those beliefs and ideas that had defined us. Now we are moving back to the Light, to what is Real and not part of the DEFINITION of Reality that folks have Mistaken for reality. Now, all along this journey our SOULS guide us..However on the first turn of the Wheel, into a greater Density, we have renamed the Soul, "EGO".. because, well you know, it's all about that SEPARATE Expression we call ourselves ..and Unity and LOVE have very little to do with our motivation while gathering this UNIQUE SEPARATE Expression.. so we label it Bad and say it's motivated by EGO...However not a single Soul, not Jesus or Buddha as ever ..Not been through this part of Evolution. It's built into the System.... For at least the last 3 lives I have been on the Wheel going in the Direction of the Light....the "Garden". Love is a Human word, usually related to Emotion that has ZERO to do with what we feel when we MERGE with the Light.. OH, I digress....so I was going into the Light several times a day, a lot of it Via what you might call an NDE, but also with Contemplation, which when done RIGHT and totally lesads us there as well, as does Kriya Yoga, and Raja Yoga etc. My teachers were all about trying to show me EVERY Path to the Light so I could ....communicate to the world how there are many way...I was tasked to teach certain things 50 years ago,,,HOWEVER....o these multiple trips into the InBetween Time I ....broke some of my Teachers rules because, well...in my prior life they REALLY PISSED ME OFF......so I wasn't going to blindly accept their Limitations.... I learned a lot from this.... one thing was, I should have listened....but also other things that few people know, and Shouldn't I used something that I learned and wrongly extrapolated a conclusion from to do what some might call Magic....and it was for Love.... My Girlfriend/future wife walked in on me in a very heightened state... I had already showed her some things she was...not evolved enough to process...anyway....bottom line, she begged me to ,"Go back to who I once was"...and I thought I knew how I could do that.....I said that if she would come to the Light with me, I'd try. Well I had , just as she walked in, seen her ....Future choices, and those that would aid in her contact with her Soul and those that would distract, so I thought OK...I went back into the InBetween Time and did a really dumb thing...I could explain it, but it is beyond the Matrix of human understanding and if you were actually interested in it....I could later, but Facebook limits # of words. Anyway I pulled it off....and when I came back to my Body...EVERYTHING had changed. First I no longer felt my Teachers, second I became so Psychic I felt Everyone in about a square city block.....HOLY Moley ! Their thoughts, feelings and infirmities... I could not function well around Humans and very soon had to quit my very good job at Ma Bell. What kept happening when I was overloaded with all these peoples STUFF was I'd automatically go INTO THAT LIGHT we experience in the InBetween Time and as the result of many types of Meditation...NOT GREAT when you are on top of a telephone pole. I also ws working 6 days a week putting ina new Centrex at Stanford University.... One day I ...felt myself slipping into the Light....got to a bathroom stall, and DISSOLVED....and didn't come back right away, they had to drive me home. I ended up quitting the job and lived in the hills with my new Life living off the land...... So, my responsibility to...teach certain things...... OH, yeah... When I did that crazy Magic for my girlfriend and everything changed....HMMM, hard to explain.BUT I had pulled back into myself what I called the,"Shedding skin of my Construct" during the Death state. Now a ,"GHOST" is a soul that looks Back at it's Construct....and by resonance and Magnetism is literally pulled into it..... that is what makes them a Ghost, but this rarely happens because there is basically a forward velocity of the Death Experience..... FEW LOOK BACK....... But what I had done was worse, I had before broken the rule and quickly gazed back at mine and saw what sort of looked like a shedding skin floating away from it...My dumb ass theory was that this was the DROSS That was falling away from me after all the Light Baths I was having. .. And you may know that in the InBetween time it's all about Frequency, Magnetism and RESONANCE... so, just by willfully putting my Intention upon that shedding skin, it drew it to me, incorporated it into me..... YIKES. Here's the thing" We develop our idea of self VERY SEQUENTIALLY. Like we gotta go to first grade, before second and so on...IN ORDER..... Order is Paramount. I pulled all this OLD CRAP, I mean REALLY OLD CRAP into myself out of order. I call this my Humpty Dumpty Episode...so Teachers GONE, Insanely PSYCHIC, would go into the Light when around a human that had problems or just a lot of NOISE going on..... My Job was put on Hold.... It took me like 40 some odd years to get everything Back IN ORDER, so I could start DROPPING it again......So, some people feel that the feeling they get from the Light is Love, which is understandable because NOTHING in Human Existence feels so good, or even comes close.But I see it as More then that as LOVE coupled with ...Intention.... limitless possibilities....So, no...my ego has not dissolved, it's simply transmuted to it's new ...Goal....which is ....Unity in Love you might say... We just choose to call it Soul at this stage, but it is the very same thing we once called EGO. The Circular nature of a Souls evolution was one of those things I was tasked with teaching, as well as the 7 primary paths to the Light. Other topics were where communicable diseases actually come from, How,"Heaven" and the "Garden" are as far distant from each other then anything else, the Nature of the Death Experience and how to gain Maximum Evolution from it, and the Law of Creation and the NATURE of Creation..... My Teachers are back but the task seems so HUGE, Humans are so TRAPPED in their IDEAS ABOUT Reality which keeps them totally DISCONNECTED from reality AS IT SIMPLY IS, that to try to speak from Beyond that narrow... Box to that narrow box and expect any amount of comprehension....is daunting. Just here we can see how people have this Incredible experience, but automatically, while even in the Process....DEFINE it down in terms from the limited perspective of the inside of their boxes, so the Experience simply become one more IDEA ABOUT the experience Based upon their previous Programming. This is why the first rule my Teachers had was to GO IN SILENTLY, do not DRAG your DESCRIPTION of the world in with you.

